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Finding Peace

Published on June 7, 2015June 7, 2017 by Neyzielle RonnicqueLeave a comment

Sabi nila, ang starfish kapag nasusugatan, bumabalik siya sa kanyang pinanggalingan.

I don’t know how to better put it but I’m drained. ~~/Physically/~~, because I was having a terrible headache for almost a week now. ~~/Emotionally x Mentally/~~ for personal reasons, but not ~~/spiritually/~~ because thank God for Matthew 11:28 and my everyday devotion, I’m still doing fine.

I went home, albeit impulsively, because I’m a starfish.I wanted to go to the beach but most of my best friends are busy at work, and I forgot that it was not the same undergraduate years anymore. Isn’t it sad to be driving there alone?

Impulsively, too, one of my mains’ too excited when I texted him of where I want to go because he hasn’t gone there yet.Why am I in much need of the nature? Because I’m so sick and tired that earlier today, I just want the world to be quiet for a little while.I have been thinking about going back here lately because it has been two years since the last time I visited the place.

I chose the mountains instead of beaches and I just did the right thing.

Here’s the vanity photos. x I was so happy that I’ve proven myself that I just need the fresh air to calm the raging storm inside my head. Everyone around me know that I don’t really like being stable. I wanted to rest, to just lie down, watch a movie or read my books I haven’t even started yet, but the stability made me feel abnormal, and like I was doing something wrong.

You know, everyone around me told me to pour my heart out in everything I do, then they ask me why I’m ~~empty.~~

I was finding peace but then I came to a point that day that it’s already time to stop running away from things that are uncomfortable and hard. It’s already time to confront issues and problems in my life.

“I have a special skill of feeling too much when I shouldn’t, and feeling nothing when I should.”

Bottomline? I found the peace and I had a word.

The peace of God, which transcends all understanding , will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. | Philippians 4:7 x

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Like it’s so hot in Ilocos Norte so top the peace-finding with much-needed halo-halo, love. 🙂

Why One Needs an Alone Time

Published on May 31, 2015May 29, 2015 by Neyzielle RonnicqueLeave a comment

Let’s face it: Your everyday works go unconsciously routinary and the thoughts of taking a rest bugs you as it continuously lurks around the corners of your head, popping every thought bubble you carefully stored for your next work haul.

You say you love your job, you say you will never get tired of doing and finishing your workloads, but You. Are. No. Superman.Find solitude in places you haven’t gone to, it’s not a losing art.

Why do you need to spend time alone, babe? I can never think of anymore reasons but these because yes, I’m spending my alone time writing this. It’s more of a note-to-self, eh.

Allows yourself to recharge

Solitude makes it easier for you to reboot your brain and unwind. Take a chance to pick up the pieces that are already scattered because of your nonchalance, if you know what I mean.

Okay, okay – you have all the time in the world to recharge but you keep on finding reason to postpone it and your weariness already piled up to a mountain and it’s not doing you any good that you’re draining. Don’t pour it all out. Recharge.

Subconsciously erases your FOMO

Fear of missing out with your friends’ getaways and lives; of your office mates’ ideas, know-it-all-perks, and snide remarks; of your personal ego. The verdict comes from those self-pitying scheme. Stop it. You’re amazing! If they don’t include you in their plans, who cares? You can just go out alone without being a liability to anyone but yourself. *wink*

Your alone time is an opportunity for you to take good care of yourself

Exercise, eat right, and eventually get a much-needed sleep. Combine these with your alone time and bam, who says you need just to meditate when alone?

Or pack your bag and head to the beach. Anyone told you how calming the sea could be?

Reminds you of your worth

It gives you the time to think of answers on your “What am I going to do with my life” question that has been circulating in your mind for a long time. You are worth more than your thoughts. Just go with the flow and enjoy the solitude.

You are needed, you are vital, you are precious to someone’s life (personal and company wise) because they won’t talk to you if otherwise. You are worthy of God’s love, yes? Because you are His child.

Minimizes your thoughts to negativity

Because come to think of it, you don’t know where to place yourself anymore. Are you still entitled to this job description or has it already slipped out to other’s work again? Or are you still doing your tasks efficiently? Or are you still needed in your best friends’ lives or are you the one who’s distancing yourself from them? Worse, are you still getting the idea of helping your family because accept it, you have them as your responsibility.

With that being said, think of a better reason to survive tomorrow. These are inevitable and you would not think about it if it’s not happening. But just ignore those even for a little while, yes? Your solitary moment helps you work through that effectively.

Life is not just about doing your tasks. It’s more of doing your tasks and loving yourself more. xx

Friendly reminder: Go out alone, sip a cup of coffee or tea, eat your favorite sweets, satisfy your cravings, well, go shopping, spend a fortune for yourself and constantly be reminded that it is for you, that you [sometimes] need to take a break from diligently working your heart out.

P.S. Schedule your solitude and bring with you a good read.

HOW IT FEELS TO BE WORKING IN A FOUNDATION

Published on May 20, 2015May 22, 2015 by Neyzielle RonnicqueLeave a comment

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“Your salary may just be half of mine,” a friend once told me.

“But it’s okay because at least you feel that you’re alive, you got to visit many places naman eh,” she added.

I always get this kind of reaction whenever someone asks me what I do for a living. “I am a writer,” I always say and “Wow” comes next but adding, “I work for an international humanitarian organization,” sometimes raises eyebrows.

Don’t get me wrong but how are you loving your high-paying jobs without feeling alive?—much more without feeling relevant everytime you sit in your office chair, open your laptop, and just do your workloads for the day?

Ah, practicality, yes of course.

I don’t have anything against that “feeling” but you must at least feel something whenever you enter your office’s premise because dude, you get paid for that!

So, answering the question of why am I still staying in this line of work, here are five things I learned in my almost one year of “official” service. (I spent my entire childhood and especially college life giving service to the humanity but I feel that it officially started when I volunteered in my work).

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I feel alive

Alive in a sense that I wake up everyday still thinking of the stories I will be writing that [may] inspire other people. I feel alive that I get to finally be able to write about the stories of my fellowmen who are mostly striving in their daily lives. Alive because I am always looking forward to my next “mission” because it means I will be meeting other people again and I will have the chance to encourage them in believing that God exists and He knows what to do with their lives. That, my friend, is my point of living.

People need encouragement

It’s a cliché, but “every person you meet is fighting his own battle” so one should not be afraid of reaching out to the least-reached people. Naturally, people sometimes need that someone who will ask “Hi, how are you?” because it may crash a long-built hiding-my-problem-to-the-world-and-I-need-someone-to-talk-to-thank-you-for-asking wall.

I am able to share people’s struggle to the world

“I write compelling stories of hope, resilience, and bravery for a living” are posted in my ABOUT ME section of my social media accounts and I have never been so proud. I interview the not-so-privileged Filipinos, asking if they are still eating three times a day. I did it maybe a hundred times already and mostly I get the answer of, “Yes, but struggling to.” That is something that I need to write for the whole world to know.

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Other people’s testimonies inspire many

Yes, testimonies of God’s faithfulness. Need I say more? That “I am thinking of ending my life but thank God you came” testimonies? Yes.

I instantly become an “Ate” to many children

I don’t know but I always make it a point to play with other kids whenever I go out for a mission. Their giggles and youth glow make me forget (for a moment) that they are struggling in life.. and I thank God that it’s usually the other way around.

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There is more to the world than buying material things, love.