Category: Personal

Are some people just born sad? Or it has something to do with our brain chemicals that substantially affect our stress levels when they dwindle? Or maybe the weather just gives us blues; rather than the cognitive flexibility that is much more needed in times of gloom.

Lately, I’ve been blaming it all to my raging hormones. Why do the endocrine glands produce these substances that scientists say influence many bodily functions? Why do we need to endure these bloody torture moods?

But after all the constant desolation, negativity, melancholia, and whatnot, I finally understood why I abruptly wanted an escape.

It all boils down to one realization: I am not sad. I am losing my way.

And trust me, it changes everything.

I wanted to write down exactly what I am feeling but somehow my paper stays empty.

I could not describe it any better.

I have been so obsessed with Korean actor Song Joong-Ki the moment I started watching Descendants of the Sun. This time, however, I realized that this swoon factor is no longer healthy; my mind is no longer healthy; the syndrome is no longer healthy.

My life is practically revolving around this actor’s charisma, and I am basically caught in a disadvantage.

I liked, followed, shared, and reblogged every possible Song Joong- Ki photo and article; I even downloaded his photos and made those as my gadgets homescreen and lockscreen wallpapers. It only led me to going gaga over him even more.

Who would not? When every girl my age literally go crazy over this fair-skinned, jawbreaking cutie who recently got out from the military. This guy whose smile can melt away every depression; whose bright eyes can undeniably make your heart skip a bit.

Borrowing from one of the DotS scenes, “How can a soldier be this handsome?” I guess I just went crazy. So I need to stop to prevent further [heart] damage.

I am in need of a force restart; to divert my attention to anything not related to SJK; or rather to completely get over with DotS and Koreanovela.

Today, I started changing my wallpapers to nature but haven’t unfollowed SJK mock accounts yet. I did not go home to Novaliches last night either so I survived a night without looking at his photos and videos online.

I’m gonna need to finish my academic readings and reports, or to finish reading at least one of the new books I started. But, this face:

Rescue me!!! Please take me to Korea. ❤

My heart to this blog, everyone.