Not a Happy Ending Story Speech, after all

The Wander Keeper (3)Alice Walker once said that love should not be worked hard for. You should wait for it, and when it comes, you should embrace it and honor its existence. But more than that, I believe that we love because we just can’t help it and we don’t choose who to love. They come when we feel like giving up.

I might sound obscure for you might think that I am a happy-go-lucky woman. You might even find it peculiar for you might also think that I am a strong person; invincible and uncapable of loving. And I might surprise all of you now if I say, LOVE is a verse and I have memorized it ♥

Ladies and Gentlemen, I have been loving the same man since I was 15. And yess ♥ I never felt so complete until the day he knelt down infront of me and asked me to be his girl ♥ Love may be described in Corinthians 13 but let me share to you the most valuable lesson I have learned n the course of love.

I have learned that EVEN THE STRONGEST PERSON IN THE WORLD WHEN INLOVE COULD CRY. Love was never a compromise, it’s just the acceptance that someone other than the self is existing. There were bumps along the road. Sometimes we stop, but it was NEVER a reason to let him go, never a reason to let “us” go.

In all the times I thought I was a failure, he was my number one fan. And through all the lessons I didn’t want to learn, he was there to make me understand.  And if life would ask me to cry for him, I’d do it over and over again if it means proving to him how much he means to me ♥

Corny as it may seem but it is one facet of my life that I am proud of. What I am just trying to say is that, in this world of MMS, Facebook and chat, love is never a lost phenomenon. It will continue growing and flourishing. It will never run out of style, it will never get old, it will never lost its value. For the BEST FEELING in this world is still TO LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY AND TO BE LOVED UNSELFISHLY.

Friends, ladies and gents, these are the reflections of a woman changed by love. I don’t know what the future holds for us but I am happy than I’m still his baby and he is my man. And now, I am proud to say that I LOVE HIM, HE LOVES ME, well, it is the end of story 🙂

PS. But I let go.


Disclaimer: This is my first ever speech for a speech comm class. This has many faults now because things have totally changed but I just want to save this as a reminder that I once shared something  this corny in front of a whole class– which has to be my not-a-happy-ending-story after all.

Found this on my Facebook profile notes published five years ago. Yes, you know the dread and shame. 😀

Finding Peace

Sabi nila, ang starfish kapag nasusugatan, bumabalik siya sa kanyang pinanggalingan.

_MG_3886I don’t know how to better put it but I’m drained. /Physically/, because I was having a terrible headache for almost a week now. /Emotionally x Mentally/ for personal reasons, but not /spiritually/ because thank God for Matthew 11:28 and my everyday devotion, I’m still doing fine.

I went home, albeit impulsively, because I’m a starfish._MG_3912I wanted to go to the beach but most of my best friends are busy at work, and I forgot that it was not the same undergraduate years anymore. Isn’t it sad to be driving there alone?

Impulsively, too, one of my mains’ too excited when I texted him of where I want to go because he hasn’t gone there yet._MG_3903Why am I in much need of the nature? Because I’m so sick and tired that earlier today, I just want the world to be quiet for a little while._MG_3874I have been thinking about going back here lately because it has been two years since the last time I visited the place.

I chose the mountains instead of beaches and I just did the right thing.

Here’s the vanity photos. x_MG_3879 _MG_3882 _MG_3887 _MG_3888 _MG_3890 _MG_3891I was so happy that I’ve proven myself that I just need the fresh air to calm the raging storm inside my head. _MG_3897-001Everyone around me know that I don’t really like being stable. I wanted to rest, to just lie down, watch a movie or read my books I haven’t even started yet, but the stability made me feel abnormal, and like I was doing something wrong. _MG_3900 _MG_3902

You know, everyone around me told me to pour my heart out in everything I do, then they ask me why I’m empty.

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I was finding peace but then I came to a point that day that it’s already time to stop running away from things that are uncomfortable and hard. It’s already time to confront issues and problems in my life.

“I have a special skill of feeling too much when I shouldn’t, and feeling nothing when I should.”

_MG_3929Bottomline? I found the peace and I had a word.

The peace of God, which transcends all understanding , will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. | Philippians 4:7 x

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Like it’s so hot in Ilocos Norte so top the peace-finding with much-needed halo-halo, love. 🙂_MG_3941 _MG_3942

Why One Needs an Alone Time

Let’s face it: Your everyday works go unconsciously routinary and the thoughts of taking a rest bugs you as it continuously lurks around the corners of your head, popping every thought bubble you carefully stored for your next work haul.

You say you love your job, you say you will never get tired of doing and finishing your workloads, but You. Are. No. Superman.10462725_979640605386758_2527682370314023825_nFind solitude in places you haven’t gone to, it’s not a losing art.

Why do you need to spend time alone, babe? I can never think of anymore reasons but these because yes, I’m spending my alone time writing this. It’s more of a note-to-self, eh.

  1. Allows yourself to recharge

Solitude makes it easier for you to reboot your brain and unwind. Take a chance to pick up the pieces that are already scattered because of your nonchalance, if you know what I mean.

Okay, okay – you have all the time in the world to recharge but you keep on finding reason to postpone it and your weariness already piled up to a mountain and it’s not doing you any good that you’re draining. Don’t pour it all out. Recharge.

  1. Subconsciously erases your FOMO

Fear of missing out with your friends’ getaways and lives; of your office mates’ ideas, know-it-all-perks, and snide remarks; of your personal ego. The verdict comes from those self-pitying scheme. Stop it. You’re amazing! If they don’t include you in their plans, who cares? You can just go out alone without being a liability to anyone but yourself. *wink*

  1. Your alone time is an opportunity for you to take good care of yourself

Exercise, eat right, and eventually get a much-needed sleep. Combine these with your alone time and bam, who says you need just to meditate when alone?

Or pack your bag and head to the beach. Anyone told you how calming the sea could be?

  1. Reminds you of your worth

It gives you the time to think of answers on your “What am I going to do with my life” question that has been circulating in your mind for a long time.  You are worth more than your thoughts. Just go with the flow and enjoy the solitude.

You are needed, you are vital, you are precious to someone’s life (personal and company wise) because they won’t talk to you if otherwise. You are worthy of God’s love, yes? Because you are His child.

  1. Minimizes your thoughts to negativity

Because come to think of it, you don’t know where to place yourself anymore. Are you still entitled to this job description or has it already slipped out to other’s work again? Or are you still doing your tasks efficiently? Or are you still needed in your best friends’ lives or are you the one who’s distancing yourself from them? Worse, are you still getting the idea of helping your family because accept it, you have them as your responsibility.

With that being said, think of a better reason to survive tomorrow. These are inevitable and you would not think about it if it’s not happening. But just ignore those even for a little while, yes? Your solitary moment helps you work through that effectively.


Life is not just about doing your tasks. It’s more of doing your tasks and loving yourself more. xx

Friendly reminder: Go out alone, sip a cup of coffee or tea, eat your favorite sweets, satisfy your cravings, well, go shopping, spend a fortune for yourself and constantly be reminded that it is for you, that you [sometimes] need to take a break from diligently working your heart out.

P.S. Schedule your solitude and bring with you a good read.