2020 is the year when everything that could go wrong, went wrong.

Life has been very static and fragile– and every waking day was another day of discovering things I didn’t even imagine existed. It was supposed to be a good start, coming with a 2020 vision and all, but everything came crumbling comes the second week of March.

Suddenly, the world was on standstill.

I had to self-isolate and stay in the Metro for a good three months before I came back to the province to work from home; and even though this track didn’t feel right at first, I knew all I ever needed was the comfort of home, the very source of longing and love.

So I went to buy and adopt two dogs I named Choji and Neji. They are probably only the reasons why I drag myself to wake up every day.

Although 2018 and 2019 were financially exhausting, I was finally able to buy my own car with the money I saved from three months of isolation in the Metro, though still on instalment basis, but that’s a start.

Literally seven (7) of my international flights were cancelled, and completing my four seasons in different East Asian countries was held off. But that also meant more time to travel with the family around my province and looking for offbeat discoveries and #wheredolocalsgo adventures.

Aside from occasional family trips and meeting with friends, all I did this year was survive. I had loads of spirals that I kept on ignoring by reading books and manga, watching anime and Netflix series, working, and painting.

It helped a lot, and I would like to believe that those activities were proof of live.

Even though 2020 disrupted my flow in more ways than one, I still believe in rainbows and butterflies. I’m still in awe at how beautiful is the sky. I am still so surprised at how God accepts me, loves me with full of grace, and how He is so patient with me even though I don’t deserve the mercy.

I pushed 2020 so hard to give me the answers to my life miseries but the one I got wasn’t the one I was expecting and it threw me off-balance.

I don’t actually know anymore.

But let us all smile at the future and bloom more beautifully in 2021, okay?