Uhm, hey! How are you? Me, I’m fine, I guess. But don’t worry, I can still handle everything on my own.

But you know, days like this, I am praying that I’m going to meet you soon because I feel like I’m all alone. I sometimes feel broken because I go out alone, eat in a fancy restaurant alone, lest, watch movies alone.

Then again, I wish not. Don’t take this the wrong way, but I am not ready yet.The feeling of being broken is temporary. See, I’m strong. I can go out alone because I choose to. I have friends but sometimes solitude is my best company. I can eat in fancy restaurants alone, not because I do not want to share my food to anybody but because I perfected the art of doing so. I can watch movies alone because why not? I skip a bit of reality in a two-hour movie and it gives me fulfillment, just so you know.

God’s best, it’s okay. I am alone, but I was never lonely.

I am fine with being alone, because when the right time comes, we’ll enjoy doing my favorite things together. I know, because God always reminds me so.

God’s best, I am not ready to know you yet because I still have the universe inside my head and I do not want to include you in my internal chaos. I want to meet you in the proper time when you don’t have to worry why I sleep late at night, clutching a book, struggling to put myself to sleep.

I am not a perfect human being, I have flaws, and I still need to know how to better handle my weaknesses on my own. I still don’t want to know who you are because I am not sure how to deal with another person’s feelings when I can’t even deal with my own.

I want to know you in God’s perfect timing, when He knows that we can already bear each other’s reservations.

I pray that you’re still not yet ready, too, because you know that God is preparing something better for you—that He is preparing you to be a better man for me, as I am a better woman for you. You see, we’re young, and I hope you’re enjoying the freedom as much as I do.

I pray that you are not ready yet because you still have family obligations, so do I. Whoever you are, I pray that you are being responsible in providing for your family because they need you this time more than anytime else. I know you are strong and matured enough in setting your priorities but don’t forget to pamper yourself, too, okay?

God’s best, I am not ready yet but when I do, I promise that you’ll appreciate why God extended the time of us knowing and/or meeting each other.

The right time will come, let’s just be the best for each other when it does.

I am not yet ready, but when I do, I promise I’ll be your God’s best, too.

Sincerely,

Your future half ~