She was a gift.

My most amazing birthday gift last year. I remember the first time I saw her with her brother Bernie Kosar (BK) and how little fur they were back then.

My brother asked me his name the moment they pick me up in the bus station. And “Cassey” was the first name that came into my mind.

Yes, Cassey, my little snow white.

She was not as behaved as Jiggy was. But she was so sweet I loved her, and her brother who died just two months after, instantly.

Taking from experience, I did everything to take good care of her though I was away.

Everytime I went home, I made it a point to send her to be vaccinated, which was completed before I head to MNL.

She was so beautiful and lovely. She’s my little piggy.

Yesterday, I asked my tito to take a picture of her because I don’t know why I’m missing her so much. I was so happy to finally see her on a Facebook photo with Rain, my brother’s Duchshand.

Little did I know that she’ll leave me too soon, only six days before my plan of seeing her again.

It hurts, just like the moment I learned about Jiggy last November. I was in Hawaii, now I am here in Manila, and just like that, I never had the chance to see her playing around, alive.

To my Cassey,

I can’t let go, but I should. Because home will never be the same without my Cassey. Running errands will never be happy.

I’m six days away. Six days to see you, and six days of excitement because I know you’ll be home with your wagging tail to welcome me. But.. I don’t have anything to look forward to now.

I won’t be able to touch your fur that’s so white I can’t stop hugging. Your act of sweetness that only I can understand.

They say you’re mean, no, you’re just brave like me. You do not want anyone to make wrong move in our teritory.

I love you. It hurts that I will never see you run and hear you bark at all people again. But I know you’ll be okay with BK and Jiggy and Princess and Fluffy.

Play with them in heaven, okay? Kiss them for me.

PS. Santa, can I have all my dogs back for Christmas, please. 😢 I’ll bake you a cake!