1. Indifference is Inevitable

You can never blame me because I had mine since I was 8 years old. I used to have different units and brands then, because 1) I use it to communicate with my father who is in abroad 2) It became my comfort zone when I don’t have anyone to talk to, I mean, the games and everything, and 3) I think you’ll agree with me, is that your phone is connected to your soul, you got to love it more than other things because it is the possession where you keep most of your privacies. It is never the same, you know.

2. Losing your phone is like losing a part of yourself
That feeling when you wake up in the morning, and the first thing you do is look for your phone, and you can’t find it, then you realize that you can never really have it back. It’s like waking up broken hearted, you want to cry but you choose not to, because you can never do anything about it. You tell yourself that it will gonna be okay, and you just need to let go, and move on. But no, how can you, when you will have a hard time loving the new one, if you’re lucky enough to have something new.

3. Your phone is a daily reminder that you’re existing
It’s always on your side, when you wake up until you go back to sleep at night again. You live your life doing that daily routine with your phone always there, yes, when you really need it the most. Because you can pretend you are doing something, though not for some people, when you are bored and alone and lonely and.. Every effin time. It’s never the same without it, right? There’s a part of you that is missing, and that is life and the gap that can only be filled with, er, technology wise.

I need a phone.
It is a part of my life, my daily grind, my routine, and myself.
But how can I have one now?
I am so lonely and I think I cannot go any day longer without something on my hands.
It’s a way to kill a part of me.