She just wanted to know why it is painful to be disappointed by that person she thought would never hurt her. That how could someone makes her feel extra special yesterday then turns out to be treating her like a complete stranger today?

She just wanted to know how a person can be sweet enough and leave drastically when the sweet things he said keeps her up at night. And now she wonders how many of those things he said, he actually meant.

She just wanted to know why she believes in second chances even though those second chances are the ones that hurt the most.

She just wanted to know why through all the lies and constantly getting left, she never left. Ever.

She just wanted to know the reasons why he made him believe that she could start a new life with him without being afraid of all the circumstances from her past. That how could he easily made him forget all the bad things occurred for five long years then turns out to be the one who could also bring it back, and worse make her feel more so unwanted.

She just wanted to know the reasons why he left, it that is possible.

And she just wanted YOU to know that one day she will realize that what you had after all this time were all nothing to you, that someday it won’t even matter to her anymore. She just wanted YOU to know that she will realize that she can’t lose what she never had, she can’t keep what was never hers, and she can’t hold on to you because in the first place you did not even want to stay. She just wanted YOU to know that maybe, just maybe, he’ll find a better man who can show her that happy ever after story.

She just wanted you to know why she is not sad anymore, that she is just tired of the place where she is always left out.

She just really, really wanted [you] to know why.

And lastly, she just wanted to know why everyone who said they will always be there for her, left.