I don’t know. But I feel like I need to burst my frustrations, hatred and negative vibes out tonight.

I should be on my way back to Baguio with my Mom, but I am so lonely that I can’t stand being lonelier and alone in my apartment there.

I miss my dog. So much that I am crying while I am typing this because I don’t know what to feel anymore. I miss my dog js bcos I am used to sleeping at night with him here on my bed whenever I come home from Baguio. I miss him bcos I need someone to hug right at this very moment js bcos I feel so left out and alone. I miss him so much bcos he is my comfort zone.

I miss him because I am not used to going out wherever in our barangay without him. I remember how I usually try to shove him back to our house but still find him following my track everytime.

I miss how he falls asleep on my lap; how he sleeps while I read my books on the swing outside our house; how he calmly sleeps just to wait for me as I take a bath; I miss his being a sleepy- head.

I miss him because he is the only one I can dance with. The only one I can sing my heart out, the only one who can assure me that whatever I am going through, everything will be okay.

You see? I haven’t cried a long time, not even because of wasted relationships nor failed attempts of acing the quiz in class. But I am crying tonight, just tonight, because tonight would be the last. I hope.

I miss my dog, I won’t trade him for anything. But what can I do? He’s gone. And only I can make the best out of it.

My dog taught me lessons in life. And that I will never forget.

I know he’s happy with Fluffy wherever he is now. I am happy, too. Just because I need to. Because in another life, he’ll be my dog again.

I need to stop crying.

But Santa, can I have Jiggy back for Christmas, please?